She's Got the Whataburger Blues

I'm not sure how I've been feeling lately. I know I'm a little stressed and I get irritated and angry really easily lately, but that's not what I'm talking about.
Crazy Lady moved in with us and now so is Stockboy. Rent will be split four ways and in a few weeks I can quit Whataburger. This isn't the main issue either. Crazy Lady is fine and obviously I like Stockboy, but I feel like this has thrown everything off. I never see Bestie now. I didn't see her all the time before, but at least we could sit around together occasionally. They either go out a bunch or they're shut up in Bestie's room and I feel like I can't go in there without suddenly being pressured to do some kind of drug. I have nothing against anyone who does drugs, but I feel like I should be allowed to say no in my own house.
I just think it's crazy that the first time I've felt pressured to do drugs is by an adult that should the one telling me not to do them. I just want to spend time with my best friend without someone saying, "come on, try it, just this once."
I miss her.
And I'm irritated because suddenly she's secretive or something. And her room is locked all the time. We share things, and suddenly I can't borrow anything or get to the things of mine she's borrowed. I don't care if she borrows my clothes, jewelry, makeup etc, but I would like to be able to get to it if I want to wear it.
I just feel like I've lost my best friend and I have no one to talk to about everything. I have some great friends at school and I have Stockboy...but I don't want to talk to them about EVERYTHING. There are some things you can only tell your best friend.

Side note.
The Princess of Family Dollar is driving everyone crazy. She's so nice and sweet, but she just doesn't work. And no one wants to yell at her. Well, she's starting to wear me down and if she does it again when I work with her next, I may just have to yell.
And Whataburger. Gah. It was going okay, but I'm starting to get really frustrated again. The people there, aside from maybe three, make me so mad and I just want to punch them. I can't wait until I can quit.

I got a new tattoo. It's badass and makes me happy.
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:Poetic Moment:
I want to sleep
And wake up to find
A land where
Money means nothing

:Quote:
I miss you when something really good happens
Because you're the only one I want to share it with

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Life Sucks, Then You Die

School has started. I get to see my kick ass friends more often now.
Except, life sucks.
I haven't been able to get a loan yet, so I can't buy my textbooks so I can't do my homework.
I lost my pentagram necklace and I'm really upset about it. I never take that necklace off and then the one time I do, it disappears.
I almost lost my wallet today. I got off the shuttle (that I have to take from the commuter parking lot to where the academic buildings are and then walk five minutes to my class) and walked to class (late) and then realized I didn't have it. I flipped out and ran back to the shuttle and searched everywhere for it. Just when I was giving up and seriously crying in the middle of campus, I found it. But it just threw off my whole day.

Sigh.

Stockboy and I are good still. He just moved in with his friend Aaron in Crowley, so it's harder for me to see him, but we make it work. I was able to see him a few days a week after work at Family Dollar, but now it's not on my way anymore. Gah. But it gives me a chance to miss him more, which I do. I like missing him, it makes seeing him so much more special. It's been a month and a half now :)))

I'm sleepy.
I need to sleep more, but when I'm home, I want to hang out with Bestie cuz I miss her.
Bleh.
I want a new tattoo.
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:Poetic Moment:
I see myself
Falling
Falling down
And will you be there
To catch me

:Quote:
It always rains hardest
On the people that deserve the sun

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