Maybe it's Just my Heart

I'm stubborn. When I know I'm right, you will hear me until you know I'm right too. I won't admit when I'm wrong though. I won't say anything and I'll just sit and let you be right.
Sometimes (most of the time) I just want to be lazy. Later on I wish I would have utilized my time, but instead I chilled on the computer for a few hours. I'm trying to be better about it by making daily check lists. I don't want my life to waste away in front of a computer screen. But don't be mad when I still just sit around. I like it and I don't get mad when you do things you like.

I hold grudges. Forever. It's like if I lived in Japan, they would make a movie about the way I can keep my hate bottled up for one person. Because that's the way it is. If you fuck me over and I hate you, I will hate you forever. I will never forgive you and I will probably come back to haunt you. There's no going back. You could give me a million dollars and it still wouldn't chane anything.
But then again, if you've only made me a little mad or upset, I forgive and forget as soon as you say you're sorry. Especially if you're important to me. As long as you don't make me hate you, you're in the clear.

A girl I went to high school with got married a few days ago. She got engaged in December. Makes me wonder about the rush. If she wasn't such a sincerely nice Christian girl, I would suspect pregnancy. But that can't be the case here. It also makes me jealous. I just want SuperLoverBoy and i to have a nice wedding (ten months from now) but every time I try to plan I get sad at how much everything costs and I know we can't afford it. I hate that money is the reason I have to deal with second best to what I want. The dress I want, the place I want etc. It's just frustrating. Especially since we're not really having money troubles anymore. We just can't save as much as some stuff costs.

I want to take online classes so I'm not a semester behind anymore. I might do them over the summer. I think they start in April. Through TCC. I can transfer the credits to TCU in the fall...if I can go back in the fall. Maybe I'll get the scholarship I slaved over. I hope so. I'm good enough. If i don't...well I guess I'll just take classes at TCC. I can still be in marching band that way. And if I take online classes I can work except for band stuff. I'll miss TBS...but there's not much I can do about that.
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:Poetic Moment:
You are my heart
You are the air I breath
You are my everything

:Quote:
Can I be the only hope for you
Because you're the only hope for me

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Well, I guess there will be no picture because it won't load. It was a very cute picture of a license plate that said turtle.