*Bang* That Was the Sound of My Hopes Committing Suicide

Here's to thinking everything was going good. Of course I had to actually like her and of course it had to just screw everything up. Of course. I'm stupid. *Sigh* I wasn't expecting anything. I really wasn't. I've learned that getting my hopes up just makes everything go in the opposite direction. So I was trying to just go with the flow and let what was supposed to happen, happen...but oh well.
MakesMeSmileAllStupid is going home on Tuesday. Home is three hours away. So, I wanted to hang out with her when I could before she left. And of course, it came across as clingy. I hate being clingy, but that's just what happened. And now everything is ruined.
I'm stupid.
Why do I always have to screw everything up.
And I was actually happy too...
I should have known that something bad had to happen. Everything was going so good. Nothing in my life can ever be this good...something had to go wrong.
*Sigh*
Oh well. This makes a few things not so complicated though...I guess. Even though I would never pick the easy way out just to avoid complications...oh well.
Gah.
That's all.
*

:Poetic Moment:
Let it all
Come crashing down.
Let the sky fall
And let me forget.


:Quote:
I'm half alive, but I feel mostly dead
I try and tell myself it will all be alright
I just shouldn't think anymore tonight

:Picture: