I guess I always have. That's why I got into theatre eventually. I knew how to turn off my thoughts and emotions and take the form of someone else. It was easy.
It's still easy, but I'm not on the stage anymore. I just turn off my emotions in front of everyone else to make things....easier? Smoother? I don't like to talk about my issues because I don't feel like they are worth much when someone else has a problem. I like to rant, sure, but I don't show it all over my face. I don't want people to ask me "how are you?" and know that I'm lying when I say "I'm fine." I'd rather them just take it and go on, since they don't really care if I'm okay or not but if I say I'm not they might feel obligated to stop and listen to me.
Not everyone needs to stop and listen to me.
Deep down, I know there's a lot about me and my life that is not "fine" and should probably be talked about, but I don't necessarily think I want to talk about it all yet. Sometimes I talk, but not everything comes out. I don't know how to tell if it is safe to bring up all my dark and scary secrets.
I wish I knew.
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Habits list Cont.
- I fold my French fries in half when dipping them in something
:Poetic Moment:
Just let everything go and
Push away your stress.
Absorb the peace and quiet
Of the garden - distant from the
Reality of the harsh world.
Breath in.
Breath out.
:Quote:
Scared to get attached again
Like you have this fear that
Every person you start to
Like will
Break
Your
Heart
:Picture:
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