Being a Grown Up Is Very Overrated

So, we have said that L word.
I knew that was what he was thinking.
I'm going crazy here. Mostly because of him. It's been so long since I've liked someone this much. I don't know what to do. I've become very aware of everything that I do and I wonder if he thinks I'm weird, or have strange habits, or something like that.
Gah.
And then sometimes he gets all quiet and I get all paranoid and wonder if he's rethinking this or if he's wondering if this is right. But then he looks at me the way he does. And kisses me the way he does. And just...I'm crazy about him.
That's all there is to it.

I hate being grown up.
I hate paying bills. I hate not having money.
I remember a time when the money I made from my job went to whatever I felt like buying, not bills. I miss those times. I want to be young and carefree again. And now I'm just...grown up. Lame.
I need a second job. I'm going to go apply at whataburger down the street from my house. Yea night job. I'm so excited.

I miss my friends :(
I live with Bestie and I see Stockboy pretty often. But then everyone else is far away.
Miss Giggles is in Dallas right now, or she's in Alvarado, which is inconvenient.
Gay Lover #1 and #2 are in San Antonio.
Roomie is in Houston.
Creeper is in Plano.
GAH!
Why can't school be back in yet so all my friends are in the same effing place??
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:Poetic Moment:
I'm addicted to the way
You pull me to you
And kiss me hard
With just one look from me

:Quote:
Cause with you
I'd withstand all of hell
Just to hold your hand

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