When I'm busy I don't notice how much I miss my friends. I can't wait until school starts up again so I can have them around me again. They're so awesome and make my day better without saying a word. But then the words make the day awesome. Haha.
Got the job at whataburger. Yea two paychecks. Maybe it will make a difference and I will be very happy. Maybe. The manager did seem slightly concerned about my busy schedule though. School during the day, family dollar three times a week, and then working there most nights until three in the morning.
"When will you study?"
"During the day when I have downtime."
"When will you sleep?"
"When I'm dead."
Bahaha, I really did say that. He laughed. It was great. He just told me to let him know if it was getting to be too much. It won't, because I'm up til three in the am anyway, might as well be productive and get paid for it. Right? Hahaha.
Stockboy is being...weird. Whenever we're together, it's fine. But then he gets all weird in front of other people, or on the phone, or when I'm trying to make plans to see him again.
He tells me over and over again how much he loves me, and I believe him...but I feel like he loves me at arm's length. He has told me I'm gonna meet his friends a few times now, but it always gets put off. And he won't accept my help when I offer it. He was stranded in Burleson yesterday and he wouldn't let me come get him or give him gas money.
I don't even know where he is right now.
I wish he would call me.
I hate this worrying about him nonsense.
Because if something happened to him while he was walking around Burleson, I'd feel bad for being pissed off.
However, if nothing happened to him and he made it to his friend's house just fine and then just opted not to call me like he promised he would...well, then I guess I won't feel bad for being pissed off.
Going to a concert tonight.
I'm about to eat and take a quick nap and then start getting ready. I woke up entirely too early today and it was my day off so it kind of pisses me off. My one day that I didn't have to work, and I had to be up at too early o'clock and go look presentable and be impressive and all that nonsense. Gah.
Hungry.
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:Poetic Moment:
I don't know what I'll do
If you break me down
And tear me up
And leave the pieces to rot
:Quote:
And all I need to know
Is that I'm something
You'll be missing
:Picture:
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